stay cool,keep calm, love a soldier ♥

I am a graduating student in the midst of discovering what I really want to do with my life, while my childhood shy type schoolmate turned out to be the perfect man for me takes on all the challenges of being in..... the United States Army. With just being a girlfriend, we are struggling with long separations and adjusting to life apart from one another.

Heartbreak after heartbreak.. I don't know what's wrong but I always ended up with the wrong guy .. I might say ☺☺

The last break up actually happens ..... Not so long ago... Where I have been betrayed and I almost felt that maybe, relationships like this were really not for me ... So I decided to take a break.. I just unwind.. Go with the flow.. Day by day it seems like a new day for me after that break-up it's so hard to move on... Specially with the first man that I introduced to my family... But as my mom says "there are no mistakes, only lessons learned" my friends and family supported me every single dat of struggle, and I thank them so much for never letting me feel alone..

Days,weeks, months passed... And I can say that I'm a better person, I have discovered so many things about myself that I almost forgot because of the relationship.. Anyway.. This is when .. My prince charming came .. Or I would prefer to say... my soldier came and heal my broken heart again...............

Never in a million years did I think I'd find someone so utterly and completely perfect for me, someone who would make me happier than I ever dreamed I could be,someone who would accept me and embrace my imperfections, someone that would touch my life so much and just give me a whole new reason to breathe and experienced that thing they called "true love". But then I found mikko..or I should say the love found us and realized that everything I anticipated to be my man doesn't even compare to who he is.

You? Me? Our friends? Even my best best bestfriend never imagined this would happen .. I remember my girls first reaction when I told them that I'm completely in love with you

" Are you sure hon"
"is this for real?"
"Are you joking"
"isn't that hard?,
"how will it work?"

Never ending questions .. But for the first time in my life.. No hesitations I answered

"YES IM SERIOUS, I
DONT KNOW HOW THIS RELATIONSHIP WILL WORK,BUT IT WILL!! I LOVE MIKKO".

It all started with just one comment! Mik posted on my fb wall

Mik:happy birthday mary jane!

Me: Are you nuts? Its not yet my birthday

Mik: ayy! Sorry

Days passed he posted something about his feelings of being separated to his family coz of his duties as an army.. And as an old friend I just replied
"Poor mikko!, come back to the philippines and we will hug you".

Then tinnggg!! He pm me! Asking what's up and if I'm not that busy if we can go on skype.. And since I'm actually bored that time.. Yeee we talked via skype like 5hrs I think.. Remembering our childhood days where he was so fucking silent and I was so damn noisy! Haha I gave him updates of our batchmates ., then after that .. Everyday msgs .. Nothing serious just like the old times ..

I was not that interested to him actually.. .. And I don't have any plans of investing any feeling on him..

Though I have moved on from my previous relationship I still have that little owsy ow feeling that men are just jerks who cannot be trusted!

I'm dating other guys that time.. I can say I have many suitors that time .. But I just know inside me that I am not ready, I cannot afford any heartbreak again!

Then bang!! Everything between me and mikko just cHANGED,, we don't know how that thing happened.. He calls me princess,sweet and that gave me butterflies... Then one creepy morning! He says

Mikko"Iloveyoumary jane seriously",

And I'm like! "Oookaaay, u drunk"

Mikko: I'm not I'm dead serious about this mary jane

Me: so what now!

Mikko: I don't know, would u be my princess?

Me: okay your highness

Mikko: shh,, I'm not joking!!!!!

Me: okay!

Mikko: what do you mean okay? Okay I'm not joking, or okay you will be my girl and my princess?

Me: what do you prefer?

Mikko: I told you! I'm not playing games!

Me: then who is! I'm not!!

Mikko: would you be my girl mary jane?

Me: what girl?

Mikko: my girlfriend!! My princess!

Me: seriously??? Right this very moment???

Mikko: listen!!! I told you I'm serious!!

Me: calm down soldier!!!!!!! Hmmm.. Okay!!!

Mikko: what okay?

Me: okay I would be your girl!

Then he flashes that hot smile!!!! And I'm like my god! Is he really the one!!!?? I look up!! And what the hell??? Rain pours!! Crap!! My phone!!

Days,weeks,months passed! And I know!! He is really the one!! He can't sleep when I am mad. Makes me special in his own way.. He always makes me laugh at those little things..

I love it when he make plans for our future ..

But at one point.. With all the stress all the missing him.. Worries of his duties as an army .. The future deployments.. I asked myself "do I have the courage to live with this"

Then ........ 3 knocks at my door! Its my mom with my niece quincy. Mom asked me "get dressed, we will go to the church"

While walking.. I asked my mom if what is the celebration.. There is no one celebrating their birthday in our family, it is not friday, nor sunday its thursday.. And she says we have to buy mass card for my lolo who just passed away .. Upon sitting down the hall I saw this painting in the wall of sta. Cruz church


"Don't hesitate, believe in him.. He knows everything"

And I'm like.. Wtf?? I remember the thought I have in my silly head before my mom knocked on my door! And then I asked myself! "Is this a coincidence?".

Next day .. Friday! Its quiapo day so as expected.. Many devotees pay their respect,. As we look for a place my mom decided to be near that giant t.v where .. Guess what?? We are sorrounded by couples! And I'm like "now that's interesting" father frank gives his homily and ending it with.................

He heals the brokenhearted and bandages their wounds. -Psalm 147:3


After the mass .. We have dinner at greenwich my mom ordered my favorites but I was doomed with all these things happening that I can't eat. She asked me..

Mom: what's wrong?

Me: I don't know if I'm ready ma, I'm scared

Mom: you're scared of what?

Me: getting hurt again

Mom: there's nothing you can do, trust you're feelings you're still young,explore there's a lot to learn.

Me: he's so far away ma

Mom: if you love him, distance is nothing

I stood up and headed to the restroom to pee...Then I just stop.. Take a deep breat then wash my hands..preparing to go back to oyr table then, I looked at my face in the mirror and just voluntarily...... water began to fall from my eyes .. ( It is actually like those scenes in the movies) then one crew approached me. The guy says..

Crew: don't cry ma'am.. He loves you. (Wag ka magaalala mam, mahal kayo nun) common joke yan ng mga pilipino pag may nakikita silang nageemote. .. Pero right timing ..

I go back to our table..eat..... And just like that all my worries vanished!!!!! BOOM!!!

In the end, if ill be with him.. Ill take the chance :))

I know pain is a part of every relationship .. But I can and I will do it because I know he is worth it.

I can't forget about my heart and how it felt to fall for him right from the start..... ♥♥♥♥♥♥

stay cool,keep calm, love a soldier ♥

I am a graduating student in the midst of discovering what I really want to do with my life, while my childhood shy type schoolmate turned out to be the perfect man for me takes on all the challenges of being in..... the United States Army. With just being a girlfriend, we are struggling with long separations and adjusting to life apart from one another.

Heartbreak after heartbreak.. I don't know what's wrong but I always ended up with the wrong guy .. I might say ☺☺

The last break up actually happens ..... Not so long ago... Where I have been betrayed and I almost felt that maybe, relationships like this were really not for me ... So I decided to take a break.. I just unwind.. Go with the flow.. Day by day it seems like a new day for me after that break-up it's so hard to move on... Specially with the first man that I introduced to my family... But as my mom says "there are no mistakes, only lessons learned" my friends and family supported me every single dat of struggle, and I thank them so much for never letting me feel alone..

Days,weeks, months passed... And I can say that I'm a better person, I have discovered so many things about myself that I almost forgot because of the relationship.. Anyway.. This is when .. My prince charming came .. Or I would prefer to say... my soldier came and heal my broken heart again...............

Never in a million years did I think I'd find someone so utterly and completely perfect for me, someone who would make me happier than I ever dreamed I could be,someone who would accept me and embrace my imperfections, someone that would touch my life so much and just give me a whole new reason to breathe and experienced that thing they called "true love". But then I found mikko..or I should say the love found us and realized that everything I anticipated to be my man doesn't even compare to who he is.

You? Me? Our friends? Even my best best bestfriend never imagined this would happen .. I remember my girls first reaction when I told them that I'm completely in love with you

" Are you sure hon"
"is this for real?"
"Are you joking"
"isn't that hard?,
"how will it work?"

Never ending questions .. But for the first time in my life.. No hesitations I answered

"YES IM SERIOUS, I
DONT KNOW HOW THIS RELATIONSHIP WILL WORK,BUT IT WILL!! I LOVE MIKKO".

It all started with just one comment! Mik posted on my fb wall

Mik:happy birthday mary jane!

Me: Are you nuts? Its not yet my birthday

Mik: ayy! Sorry

Days passed he posted something about his feelings of being separated to his family coz of his duties as an army.. And as an old friend I just replied
"Poor mikko!, come back to the philippines and we will hug you".

Then tinnggg!! He pm me! Asking what's up and if I'm not that busy if we can go on skype.. And since I'm actually bored that time.. Yeee we talked via skype like 5hrs I think.. Remembering our childhood days where he was so fucking silent and I was so damn noisy! Haha I gave him updates of our batchmates ., then after that .. Everyday msgs .. Nothing serious just like the old times ..

I was not that interested to him actually.. .. And I don't have any plans of investing any feeling on him..

Though I have moved on from my previous relationship I still have that little owsy ow feeling that men are just jerks who cannot be trusted!

I'm dating other guys that time.. I can say I have many suitors that time .. But I just know inside me that I am not ready, I cannot afford any heartbreak again!

Then bang!! Everything between me and mikko just cHANGED,, we don't know how that thing happened.. He calls me princess,sweet and that gave me butterflies... Then one creepy morning! He says

Mikko"Iloveyoumary jane seriously",

And I'm like! "Oookaaay, u drunk"

Mikko: I'm not I'm dead serious about this mary jane

Me: so what now!

Mikko: I don't know, would u be my princess?

Me: okay your highness

Mikko: shh,, I'm not joking!!!!!

Me: okay!

Mikko: what do you mean okay? Okay I'm not joking, or okay you will be my girl and my princess?

Me: what do you prefer?

Mikko: I told you! I'm not playing games!

Me: then who is! I'm not!!

Mikko: would you be my girl mary jane?

Me: what girl?

Mikko: my girlfriend!! My princess!

Me: seriously??? Right this very moment???

Mikko: listen!!! I told you I'm serious!!

Me: calm down soldier!!!!!!! Hmmm.. Okay!!!

Mikko: what okay?

Me: okay I would be your girl!

Then he flashes that hot smile!!!! And I'm like my god! Is he really the one!!!?? I look up!! And what the hell??? Rain pours!! Crap!! My phone!!

Days,weeks,months passed! And I know!! He is really the one!! He can't sleep when I am mad. Makes me special in his own way.. He always makes me laugh at those little things..

I love it when he make plans for our future ..

But at one point.. With all the stress all the missing him.. Worries of his duties as an army .. The future deployments.. I asked myself "do I have the courage to live with this"

Then ........ 3 knocks at my door! Its my mom with my niece quincy. Mom asked me "get dressed, we will go to the church"

While walking.. I asked my mom if what is the celebration.. There is no one celebrating their birthday in our family, it is not friday, nor sunday its thursday.. And she says we have to buy mass card for my lolo who just passed away .. Upon sitting down the hall I saw this painting in the wall of sta. Cruz church


"Don't hesitate, believe in him.. He knows everything"

And I'm like.. Wtf?? I remember the thought I have in my silly head before my mom knocked on my door! And then I asked myself! "Is this a coincidence?".

Next day .. Friday! Its quiapo day so as expected.. Many devotees pay their respect,. As we look for a place my mom decided to be near that giant t.v where .. Guess what?? We are sorrounded by couples! And I'm like "now that's interesting" father frank gives his homily and ending it with.................

He heals the brokenhearted and bandages their wounds. -Psalm 147:3


After the mass .. We have dinner at greenwich my mom ordered my favorites but I was doomed with all these things happening that I can't eat. She asked me..

Mom: what's wrong?

Me: I don't know if I'm ready ma, I'm scared

Mom: you're scared of what?

Me: getting hurt again

Mom: there's nothing you can do, trust you're feelings you're still young,explore there's a lot to learn.

Me: he's so far away ma

Mom: if you love him, distance is nothing

I stood up and headed to the restroom to pee...Then I just stop.. Take a deep breat then wash my hands..preparing to go back to oyr table then, I looked at my face in the mirror and just voluntarily...... water began to fall from my eyes .. ( It is actually like those scenes in the movies) then one crew approached me. The guy says..

Crew: don't cry ma'am.. He loves you. (Wag ka magaalala mam, mahal kayo nun) common joke yan ng mga pilipino pag may nakikita silang nageemote. .. Pero right timing ..

I go back to our table..eat..... And just like that all my worries vanished!!!!! BOOM!!!

In the end, if ill be with him.. Ill take the chance :))

I know pain is a part of every relationship .. But I can and I will do it because I know he is worth it.

I can't forget about my heart and how it felt to fall for him right from the start..... ♥♥♥♥♥♥

THE HEARTBREAK

I actually started this blog last June , 2011 .. And actually finished it by August 30 or September first week I think.,The sad part is .. I forgot to publish this .. So here it is .. Too late .. But never forgotten.


Today is a big day for me.. It is the day where my hear was shattered into pieces.. June 25th 20111 I was betrayed by someone whom I love for the last 2 years of my life .. I don't know what happened.. I have no clue . I can feel the pain inside me .. It is the first time., I'm like melting.. I just locked down to the bathroom.. Call her cousin and confessed everything tears were running as if there is a marathon on my face .. I can't stop though I wanted to..

Days passed .. Still.. I'm trying to hold on.. Hoping things will get better and I will have the answers I need. Every night I would go to the rooftop.. Cry.. Call someone.. Interrupt someone.. Annoy someone for my never ending cries... Stories..

Finally time has come.. I gathered all my courage to talk to him.. I asked him.. Answer me.. What's wrong,. Did I do something wrong for me to deserve this? He says no.. Its me.. He confessed everything.. Everything down to the last detail.. I can't believe it .. So I walked out from the room and look for his cousin kootchie .. Instantly tears fall from my eyes .. As if its not gonna stop.. Kootchie embraces me.. Telling me "ate,everythings gonna be okay" we talked.. Talked and talked.. She makes me laugh. And I really thank her for that. Those words he said "oo,naging kami niloko kita,pero ikaw pa rin yung gusto ko makasama habangbuhay, oo gusto ko siya. Pero hindi siya yun pinapangarap kong makasama habangbuhay,ikaw yun mey. Ikaw" (yes mey!, I cheated on you! But still you're the girl I would want to spend my life with, I like her but I don't wanna be with her, it is you) it keeps banging my head like echo..

Night passed ... I go home... As I entered our house my mom embraces me.. No words spoken .. It felt good.. As I I was hugged by an angel.. Days passed we still exchanged msgs.. He says that everything he told me that night is all lie that he never cheated on me.. And he loves me.. And he would want to see me 5years from now and marry me .. Its all like BULLSHIT to me now .. I was full of hate .. He even told me to stay what I am cause he will come back and in the back of my head I'm like ( wtf!? With all the cheating and everything? )


Heyyyyyaaa!!!! Its august!! Hooooahh!

Well regars to that dramas I have up there in my previous sentences ., I might say I'm a grown woman!! Allright!! I'm actually happy this break-up thingy happened coz! Hey!! I'm enjoying my life! New circle of friends things that I was scared of is now overcomed!! Hey give me a clap!! Haha anyway!! Well mom was right when a door shutssssss!!! A lot of windows will open!


Soooo!! Ill keep you updated if I have found the right man for me! For now ill just enjoy my life!!

My mom's advice???

Collect collect!! Then select!!


Until next timeEeeeee.....

I'm in a rush to my friend reggie's place!!!!!!! ☺☺ babbbbbbyyeee!!!!

OUR SACRIFICE

EVERY NIGHT BEFORE I GO TO MY BED ... I WOULD CLEAN THE FEEDING BOTTLES OF MY ATE .. 24 BOTTLES FOR A DAY.. SO EVERYTHING IS OKAY, LAST NIGHT FEB. 29 2011, ONE OF THOSE HORRIBLE NIGHT THAT I ALMOST GIVE UP.. THIS TIME IS SO MUCH DIFFERENT.. WALA SI PAPSY KAGABI, HE IS IN PALAWAN TO GUIDE HIS TEAM FOR WHATEVER IT IS I DON'T KNOW. SO IT IS JUST ME,MY ATE MARA AND HER HUSBAND. KAPAG WALA KASI ANG PAPSY NAMIN SA KWARTO AKO NILA MAMA NATUTULOG KASI BINABANGUNGOT SIYA PALAGI.. IT'S IN THE BLOOD.. SO, BINIHISAN NA NAMIN NI MAMA SI ATE MEA WITH HER JACKET AND PAJAMAS, CHANGED HER DIAPERS, FED HER WITH HER MILK, EVERYTHING SEEMS NORMAL... SO I LAY ON THE SOFABED.. SOFABED ANG GAMIT NILA MAMA KASI LAGI NILA TINATABI SI ATE MEA SA PAGTULOG SA GITNA SIYA LAGI .. PERO KAPAG NAKIKISIKSIK AKO.. SA GITNA KAMING DALAWA NI ATE MEA..HEHE.. AND TRYING TO SLEEP.. 11:45 STILL I CANT SLEEP .. MINUTES PASSED MY PHONE RANG.. I I GOT AN ANONNYMOUS CALL.. SINCE I DONT KNOW WHO IS IT AT AKSIDENTENG WALA AKONG LOAD.. DI KO PINANSIN .. BINUKSAN KO YUN T.V WALANG MAGANDANG PALABAS .. SO PINATAY KO DIN .. I CHECKED ON MY PHONE AGAIN .. 125 MSGS ON MY INBOX.. AND 25 NOTIFICATIONS ON MY FACEBOOK.. TAPOS NAALALA KO SI ATE MEA . KASI MAY PROMISE AKO KILA MAMA NA SA 25TH BIRTHDAY NI ATE MEA, KUNG STABLE NA ANG TRABAHO KO.. IPAGHAHANDA KO SIYA LIKE MY DEBUT PARTY.. WITH THE FLOWERS, EVERYTHING.. KAHIT MAGKANO PA.. PERO KAILANGAN MAY MASS AT SI FATHER OMPONG ANG MAGMIMISA (tito naming pari) SO IM MAKING PLANS ON MY MIND, ANG VENUE ANG IMBITADO, ANG THEME... NAPATINGIN AKO SA CRIB NI ATE MEA HINDI KO SIYA MASYADO MAKITA.... BECAUSE PART OF THE CRIB IS COVERED BY THE TOWEL. SO NO CHOICE KUNDI TUMAYO AKO.. I WAS SHOCKED AND MY HEART BEATS SO FAST.. SHE'S NOT MOVING THOUGH LAGI NAMAN SIYANG GANUN IBA YUN NARAMDAMAN KO KAGABI SO I JUMPED ON THE CRIB HINAWAKAN KO SIYA AGAD SA NOO TO SEE IF SHE HAS A FEVER.. WALA NAMAN I HELD HER LITTLE HANDS WHISPERING "ATE MEA. UI ATE MEA, TE MEA GALAW GALAW, BHE GISING KA DALI, DEDEDE KA NA" STILL SHE'S NOT MOVING PERO CONSCIOUS SIYA HER EYES ARE OPEN AND SHE'S BREATHING SLOWLY.. SABI KO ULI "BEBE GISING NA IKAW TATAKOT NA MEMEY EH, UIII AT------------ NAPUTOL AKO BIGLA KASI BIGLA NNMN SIYA KINUMBOLSYON (SEIZURE) SA GULAT KO NAPASIGAW AKO "MA,GISING MA SI ATE MEA, MAMA! MA!" NAGISING SI MAMA SA SOBRANG GULAT KO NATULALA AKO KASI IBA YUNG SIGAW NYA.. USUALLY ALAM KO NA DAPAT GAWIN PERO KAGABI I WAS DOOMED PARANG NAIWAN YUN KALULUWA KO SA KAWALAN KO FINALYY SINIGAWAN AKO NI MAMA HINDI KO NA NAINTINDIHAN YUN IBA NIYA SNBE BSTA YUNG SIGAW NIYANG "ITAGILID MO DALI, YUNG LAWAY" TSAKA LANG AKO NAKABALIK SA ULIRAT KO.. SO TINAGILID KO NA SI ATE MEA AND SABAY SIGAW KAY MAMA NA "MA, TOWEL DALI" ANTAGAL .. ANTAGAL NG SEIZURE NYA .. AND I WAS THERE HOLDING HER LITTLE HANDS NA KAHIT ALAM KO HINDI NIYA NAIINTINDIHAN YUN SINASABI KO IT CAN EASE THE PAIN SHE'S FEELING .. "BHE TAMA NA, TAMA NA YAN... WALA NA... TAPOS NA.. AHIMMMM.. AHIMMMM.. AHUHUMMHMHMM.. YAN ANG FAVORITE LULLABY NI ATE MEA GALING SKN AT KE ATE MARA .. TULOY LANG AKO HABANG NAG SESEICURE SYA HOLDING HER HANDS WHILE MY OTHER HAND IS ON HER MOUTH WITH THE TOWEL MAKING SURE THAT SHE WILL NOT SWALLOW ANY SALIVA... AFTER A MINUTE OF HER SEIZURE THAT FEELS LIKE A VERY VERY LONG MOMENT FOR US SHE BREATHES. "HA,AAAAAAAH" A LONG DEEP BREATHE.. WE CALM DOWN... AFTER LIKE 3 MINUTES NA NAHIMASMASAN NA SYA, WITH ALL MY STRENGTH KAHIT ANG BIGAT NA TALAGA NIYA AND IM ACTUALLY NOT FEELING WELL LAST NIGHT BECAUSE OF MY MIGRAINE, I CARRIED HER SA SOFABED .. SHE'S QUIET.. WE FELL ASLEEP.. I WOKE UP AROUND 2:30 NOT SURE OF THE PERFECT TIME BUT I THINK IT WAS NEAR 3AM.. I JUST LAUGHED AT MYSELF WHEN I SAW OUR POSITION. ME AND MAMA FACING ATE MEA, MY LEFT ARM IS ON HER ARMS, MY RIGHT ARM ?? NAGING INSTANT PILLOW.. TAPOS YUNG MGA PAA NI MAMA NAKADANTAY SA BINTI NI ATE MEA, NAKARAMDAM AKO NG NGAWIT SO TINANGGAL KO YUNG MGA KAMAY KO SA PAGKAKAUNAN SA KANYA .. MY ANGEL IS SLEEPING . SHE WAS SLEEPING SO CALM .. NAPATINGIN AKO SA KANYA .. SLOWLY TOUCHING HER FACE,KASI BAKA MAGISING SIYA.. SO LUMABAS AKO NG ROOM NAG C.R PAGBALIK KO NG KWARTO NAGULAT NA LANG AKO NAKAIKOT NA AGAD SI ATE MEA NATAWA AKO BIGLA GINSING KO SI MAMA " MA. TGNAN MO YUNG ANAK MO, PARANG BAGONG PANGANAK MO" NATAWA KAMI NI MAMA PAREHAS.. TAPOS HUMIGA NA AKO ULI .. I CHECKED MY PHONE .. HINDI AKO MAKATULOG NA ULI .. SO 3:15 A.M IM SURE OF THE TIME KASI NAG MSG NUN SI MIKKO HAHA :) NANUNUOD AKO NG VIDEOS SA YOUTUBE SA PHONE KO NG BIGLANG SUMIGAW SI ATE MEA "GAGAGAGAGAGAGAGA" ANDAMI.. NAGULAT AKO .. GINSING KO ULI SI MAMA "MA. TIGNAN MO PO MUNA TITIMPLA AKO DEDE BAKA GUTOM NA" AFTER MAUBOS YUNG MILK NYA AYUN NANAMAN IYAK NANAMAN SIYA NG IYAK AS IF SOMETHING OR SOMEONE IS BOTHERING HER.. SO INAKAP KO SIYA ULI SBE KO PA "BHE SLEEP KA NA, ANTOK NA SI MEMEY" AND SHE CONTINUES CRYING AS IF SHE WANTS TO SAY SOMETHING NA HINDI KO NAMAN MAINTINDIHAN.. HANGGANG 5 AM OR 6AM ATA GANUN SIYA..., CRY AFTER CRY.. I DONT KNOW WHAT'S WRONG .. HANGGANG SA NAKAIDLIP AKO.. PAGGISING KO TAHIMIK NA SIYA AND TO MY SHOCK ... SHE WAS LAUGHING!! AS IN LAUGHING ON TOP OF HER LUNGS .. PERO MAS BETTER NA YUN KESA NAMAN UMIIYAK SYA .. IT GIVES ME THE CREEP!! MADAMING BESES NA UN NGYARE AND I REMEMBER NA SABI NI FATHER OMPONG .. LET IT BE.. MGA ANGHEL NYA YUN NILALARO SYA .. :) AFTER A LONG NIGHT 5:30AM GINISING KO SI MAMA "MA, IKAW NA MUNA KAY ATE MEA SUPER SAKIT NA PO ULO KO EH," SABI NI MAMA "SGE NA NAK, LAGAY MO NA SA KUNA" SO NILAGAY KO NA SYA SA KUNA .. NAKATULOG NKO ULI ..



AROUND 7AM NAGISING AKO .. ATE MEA IS CRYING AT HINDI NORMAL NA IYAK! IYAK NA NASASAKTAN, AYOKO SA LAHAT NARIRINIG KO SIYANG UMIIYAK NG GANUN, KASI.. MATAPANG AKONG BABAE PERO POAGDATING KAY ATE MEA, NAKAKAINIS KASI PAG UMIYAK SIYA NG GANUN WALA KA MAGAWA,. NAPATAAS BOSES KO " MA. ANO PO BA YAN, BAT UMIIYAK SI ATE" SABAY SIGAW DIN SI MAMA AS ALOOB SYA NG CRIB "TUMAYO KA NGA MUNA JAN, IHANAP MO AKO BAND AID DALIAN MO" NAPABALIKWAS AKO NG GISING.. ASKING HER WHY ..


MAIYAK IYAK AKO NUNG NAKITA KO YUN KAMAY NI ATE MEA NA MAY SUGAT .. AT SUPER LAKING SUGAT .. MY ANGEL'S HAND IS INJURED SO TAKBO AKO SA KWARTO KO .. MARIRINIG MO YUNG IYAK NIYA .. NAGMAMAKAAWA.. HAWAK NA SIYA NI MAMA.. AKAP AKAP NA SIYA NI MAMA PERO SHE'S FIGHTING BACK ./. NAGPUPUMIGLAS TALAGA SIYA.. TSAKA KO LANG NAKITA YUNG SUGAT SA KAMAY NYA .. NASASAKTAN TALAGA SIYA ... NG MAHIMASMASAN AT GINAMOT NI MAMA ANG SUGAT NIYA .. NAKATULOG NA SIYA .. AYUN .. THAT'S IT ..




GUYS .. SORRY IF HINDI AKO TALAGA NAKAKAPAG UPDATE MADALAS TUNGKOL SA KONDISYON NG ATE KO .. ANYWAY SALAMAT .. SA LAHAT NG MEMESSAGE SA EMAIL KO.. MARAMING SALAMAT PO :) CONTINUE TO INCLUDE MY ANGEL IN YOUR PRAYERS :))

MY ANGEL TURNING 24 :) :)

Still for my angel, well yeah she’s turning 24, I don’t say this to my mom often but, you see I love my ate so much that I don’t know what will happen if My lord will just get her. Before I would say go on, if my lord wants to get her so she cannot suffer anymore, I can accept... but things do change. My heart is really in pain by this time. I just want to make her life longer. Even though mahirap siya alagaan., lalo ngayon. She’s getting bigger . Many things are happening, every morning totoo to, I pray to god that he may extend my ate’s life. Kahit 10 taon pa! Kaya ko pa alagaan! Kahit hindi pa ako mag asawa! Kami ng family ko we can still take care and love her. But I know everything has an end. I just don’t want it to come soon.

She’s starting to have her pubic hair, and her left breast is starting to show. I’m just praying that she will not have her periods. Because it will be so hard for her. 
It’s funny that just a little normal thing she can do like scratching her back, sleeping with pillows on her head makes me smile. It’s such a gift in my heart. When she’s laughing with no reasons. I’m just telling my mom. “andyan nnmn yung mga angels nya playing with her”   god loves her we know that. She can even make sounds now like “neney” sometimes I can even hear her saying my name like “meeeeeeeey” it’s so heart warming that my ate is developing . But yeah it’s too late. But still she’s improving.
She’s turning 24 this October 20. So by now, I’m busy preparing for her children’s party  you heard it right  every year her celebration is like that, balloons, party hats, gifts, but it’s different. Kami yung namimigay ng gifts sa mga bata. It’s a way of thanksgiving to the lord for another year he gave to my ate.

This year! Her theme would be my favourite cartoon character HELLO KITTY! Everything will be hello kitty!!

Munting Buhangin Beach

Munting Buhangin Beach Camp is created for the great outdoors – an idyllic setting big enough for families, clubs and companies. The whole area can easily suit 2,000 people and you have a choice of semi-exclusive or exclusive for accommodations.

Amenities include fully furnished air-conditioned cottages, family rooms for two (2) or four (4), tree-houses big enough for ten (10), screen tents with comfortable cushions, well-maintained comfort rooms and showers areas. Brown out free with abundant mountain-spring water.

A perfect haven for conventions, conferences, seminars and other social functions.

Aside from the clear, unspoiled beach and warm camp, Munting Buhangin’s 24-hectare property features a more active, challenging and fun-filled nature based learning experience.

I and my friend’s kat, alelie, rejj, and Jeff decided to be here to conduct our planning term paper and to have a vacation out of worries. Out of nowhere plans got crushed up because we have a little budget. We decided to stay to one of our friend's house (his Aunt’s house) we took a Tricycle and was wow by the price Php150 pesos. And so we go. Then when we arrive we just cook some of our foods because we have the plan of eating in the beach. And so we decided to go to Anilao. We ride a jeepney 1 hr ang byahe. And then we got disappointed when we see the beach, it’s like the usual manila bay here in manila. We ask some of the locals, they said that the Anilao beach that is beautiful is at the other side of the area where we are, and too bad we can’t go there because of the storm mina.

And so we decided to go to Calatagan. We ride a tricycle again for the price of 250php! (talk about the price! grr.. and some bumaba kami in some area and ride a bus again. on the bus we were so disappointed of whets happening cause we didn’t expect it. so we started talking to the other locals in the bus, and they are much willing to help us (and so thank you to all of those kind hearted people in the bus, specially yung konduktor! :) he gave us a free ride from somewhere in bauan where we should ride another bus to be in Calatagan but we change plan bcos the locals specially the mamang pulis told us that it was not safe anymore for us to go to Calatagan because of the time. it’s like 8:00 by that time, and we can't see anything outside the bus. it’s just plain dark. what we can just see is the light that coming from the bus. and so one lady with her granddaughter approach alelie and tell her that we can go with her and she will bring us to a hotel where we can stay for the night. we ended up in hotel but the tricycle driver offers us that they will bring us to the white sand beach, which is the Munting buhangin resort for a fee of 500php. and so we decided to go para hindi masayng yung pagpunta namin. i remember when we are on the bus I’m always saying "uwe nlng tyo s aManila" lol! :))
and so nkaarating kami sa munting buhangin by past 10:00 then just wash up eat, and go to the beach to see if it’s worth everything., haha :) gabi na so hindi nmn ma- apreciatte ang beach we decided to go to sleep. It’s raining very hard that time. naiinis na nga ako kasi sayang sa everything haha..
morning comes. ang aga nagising ni alelie. pumunta na kami sa beach and the sand are amazing .
It’s just annoying that the wastes that have been thrown by the people go with the water through the bay.
Masaya .. super,.. More memories before our college life end :)
Try to visit the munting buhangin resort (just make sure you have your own transportation!) LOL! haha <3

Willie