THE HEARTBREAK

I actually started this blog last June , 2011 .. And actually finished it by August 30 or September first week I think.,The sad part is .. I forgot to publish this .. So here it is .. Too late .. But never forgotten.


Today is a big day for me.. It is the day where my hear was shattered into pieces.. June 25th 20111 I was betrayed by someone whom I love for the last 2 years of my life .. I don't know what happened.. I have no clue . I can feel the pain inside me .. It is the first time., I'm like melting.. I just locked down to the bathroom.. Call her cousin and confessed everything tears were running as if there is a marathon on my face .. I can't stop though I wanted to..

Days passed .. Still.. I'm trying to hold on.. Hoping things will get better and I will have the answers I need. Every night I would go to the rooftop.. Cry.. Call someone.. Interrupt someone.. Annoy someone for my never ending cries... Stories..

Finally time has come.. I gathered all my courage to talk to him.. I asked him.. Answer me.. What's wrong,. Did I do something wrong for me to deserve this? He says no.. Its me.. He confessed everything.. Everything down to the last detail.. I can't believe it .. So I walked out from the room and look for his cousin kootchie .. Instantly tears fall from my eyes .. As if its not gonna stop.. Kootchie embraces me.. Telling me "ate,everythings gonna be okay" we talked.. Talked and talked.. She makes me laugh. And I really thank her for that. Those words he said "oo,naging kami niloko kita,pero ikaw pa rin yung gusto ko makasama habangbuhay, oo gusto ko siya. Pero hindi siya yun pinapangarap kong makasama habangbuhay,ikaw yun mey. Ikaw" (yes mey!, I cheated on you! But still you're the girl I would want to spend my life with, I like her but I don't wanna be with her, it is you) it keeps banging my head like echo..

Night passed ... I go home... As I entered our house my mom embraces me.. No words spoken .. It felt good.. As I I was hugged by an angel.. Days passed we still exchanged msgs.. He says that everything he told me that night is all lie that he never cheated on me.. And he loves me.. And he would want to see me 5years from now and marry me .. Its all like BULLSHIT to me now .. I was full of hate .. He even told me to stay what I am cause he will come back and in the back of my head I'm like ( wtf!? With all the cheating and everything? )


Heyyyyyaaa!!!! Its august!! Hooooahh!

Well regars to that dramas I have up there in my previous sentences ., I might say I'm a grown woman!! Allright!! I'm actually happy this break-up thingy happened coz! Hey!! I'm enjoying my life! New circle of friends things that I was scared of is now overcomed!! Hey give me a clap!! Haha anyway!! Well mom was right when a door shutssssss!!! A lot of windows will open!


Soooo!! Ill keep you updated if I have found the right man for me! For now ill just enjoy my life!!

My mom's advice???

Collect collect!! Then select!!


Until next timeEeeeee.....

I'm in a rush to my friend reggie's place!!!!!!! ☺☺ babbbbbbyyeee!!!!