chengs :)

ito ang mga baliw kong kaibigan ..
haha .. tama!! mga baliw!!

pag magkakasama kami ..
talagng masaya .. we know others hate us .. well as they say .. u cannot please everybody ayt?

pero wala naman samin yun .. as long as we know we are all good ..

we've been friends for quite some time now .. 2 years of friendship na tlgang masasabi kong worth it .. there are times na may tampuhan, inisan ,, pero that's friendship .. there is no such thing as perfect friendship ..

im just glad i met them all :)

patuloy kaming dumadami at mas nagiging masaya ,,
i wish ..
it will be forever ,,

masaya ako kapag kasmaa ko sila ..
parang walang bagay na hindi namin madadaan sa tawa ..

am happy and comfortable with them .. and i wish they feel the same way that i do ..

marami nang trials na pinagdaanan ang friendship namin .. but as they say .. sa mga taong nagmamahalan .. walang imposible .. i do believe in that :)

i love my chengs :)

our angel ..

what a day ..
just woke up .. well actually. i did not sleep maybe i did ... but just a nap ..

its because of our angel.. shes been up all night from 8pm till 5am .. crying and everything .. we've checked her pamperrs to see if shes already wet .. but shes not . in fact i remember changing her diapers for like 5 minutes ago ..

i fed her with milk because i think she's hungry .. she finishes it all and yet shes still crying.. we dont know why .. she cries like shes up to something .. we cant understand her because she cannot talk .. we don't know whats wrong with her ,,

i feel pity for our angel because she cannot tells us whats going on .. i think that night, shes into some pain .. where it is? i don't know .. her head .. tummy ..

i don't have any idea ,, she keeps on banging her head to the crib .. its not the first time that this situation happens .. it always happens but we can handle it .. but this night .. myy god!! i don't know what to do .


i gave her PHENOBARBITAL because im afraid that she will have her seizure .. every night she usually takes this one around 9pm .. together with DEPAKENE .

back to what happened last night .. since we don't know what to do .. i go inside the crib .. hug her .. that's what she always wanted .. she wants us to be with her .. i've been in the crib from 10pm up to 4 pm i think .. hugging her tight .. she would just moars .. like gagrr .. like playing with her saliva ..

that's what just she wanted .. she ants us to hold her ..
maybe she wants to feel our body close to her ..
she did not sleep .. but she keep quiet ,,.


hayys .. >_< im sad now .. because i just remember what the doctor said that she isnt normal and god can get her anytime he wants,,

im just scared .. to scared to wake up one day , that my angel isnt there anymore :(

our angel during her operation ...

this photo was taken last November, during our angel's operation .. wonder what kung ano yun ??

tooth extraction :)! pero lahat ng ipin niya!! as in lahat .. walang tinira ..

well .. sabi kasi ng doctor niya .. it would be better kung tatanggalin lahat ng ipin niya kasi wala din namang pinaggagamitan to .. hindi naman siya ngumunguya ng pagkain .. so no use ,, and delikado para sa kanya .. kasi pag inatake daw siya ng epilepsy .. ang tendency is umuga ang ipin niya and matanggal .. tapos malunok niya .. tha wud be the worst case scenario.. kaya kahit mahal.. pinagipunan ng daddy namin ..

una kasi sa PGH siya dinala .. eh kaso yung doktor dun .. pinapabalik balik kami sa ospital which is masama para sa angel namin .. kasi baka kung ano yung makuha niyang sakit dun ..

accidentally, while pauwi na sila mommy galing sa bahay ng isang friend nakita nila yung De oCampo Hospital along Nagtahan ata yun, not sure .. so nag inquire sila mommy.. and then may nakausap silang doktor , si Dr. _____

Sobrang thankful nga ako sa doktor na to.. kasi sobrang bait niya talaga .. binigyan niya ng special attention yung kapatid ko. so ayon after a week pinabalik kami and then inoperahan na ate ko ..

dumating kami sa ospital at exactly 7:00 am .. ang schedule niya kasi sa emergency room. umakyat lang kami sa room to put our things and then we wait sa operating room. andon kami kasama ate ko, ipinagdadasal si ate mea na sana maging okay lahat. wala sanang maging aberya, wag sana siya atakahin ng epilepsy. thinks like that. habang si mommy naiiyak na.. syempre.. kahit kami naman .. first time kasi na ooperahan si ate mea..

eh ako medyo makwela.. I've always been the clown of our family.. haha LOL!! kung ano ano pinagagawa ko just to make my mum laugh .. medyo effective naman ..

nakatulog pa nga ako sa upuan don .. haha :0 so funny!!

pass 12 na .. pero hindi pa rin tapos ang operation .. pinatawag si mommy sa loob ng operating room. ang kwenta ng mommy. naawa daw siya kay ate mea pagpasok niya kasi para na daw patay si ate mea. and then biglang nagising. nagwala na si ate mea,,

pero that's a good sign kasi buhay siya :0 HOORAAY!!

binalik na siya sa room ng mga 2:30 ata yun ..awang-awa ako sa ate ko .. walang tigil yung dugo sa paglabas ba mouth niya . as in wala .. since hindi pwede si mommy na umakyat sa kama ako na lang yung umakyat .. kasi hindi siya pwede ng walang kasama don ... malalaglag siya .. kasi lagi lang siya sa kuna kapag asa bahay namin siya ..

hindi din siya pwede kumain sa feeding bottle by that time .. kelangan i drops lang yug milk niya .. ayon mahirap pero okay lang .. at least .. masaya na kasi no worries na sa kanya .. hindi ako natulog nun.. kasi kailangan may magbantay sa kanya baka matanggal yung dextrose niya ..

for 4 weeks na ganun ang nagyari sa amin ,

hay .. atleast now okay na siya :)

lalong gumanda ang angel namin noh??

and yea!! thank you pala sa lahat ng staffs ng DE OCAMPO HOSPITAL sa nagtahan for taking good care of my sister ... napakabait nila ..


that wud be ol ..

wait for my next story .. about me , my family, and my ate mea :)

Our Princess

This is our Princess Marie Joice Diswe, believe it or not, she's already 22 years old. she's our angel. the doctor ones said that she can only live for like 7 years, or 18 years and her maximum life would be 20.. pero sa awa ng diyos .. ito po she's turning 23 years old this year.

sabi ng iba, swerte daw ang merong special sa isang pamilya, well siguro nga totoo :) i do beieve in that ,. mahirap alagaan ang ate ko .. well yeah .. she's my ate .. tatlo kaming babae .. tres marias .. datz what they usually call us ..

im the youngest.. my ate mara is 25 years old. next is our angel 22 .. and im 18 ..

back to the subject LOL!! mahirap ngang alagaan ang ate ko ..
kasi she needs special attention.
Hindi diya nakakakita ng malinaw .. as in blurred talaga ..
i even remember yung salamin niya na like 400+ yung grado ..
hindi na siya ginagamit ngayon kasi hindi rin naman advisable ..

she cannot eat solid foods.
pwede yung mga fruits kung i bleblender ..
puro milk lang ang kinakaen niya ,.

hindi rin siya nakakatayo ,.
kasi hindi naman fully developed yung katawan niya ..
nakakaupo siya ..

hmm what else??
naka pampers lang siya ...
siguro 5-7x siya magpalit ng pampers a day ,,
para talgang baby ..

sabi nga baby forever namin siya ..

our angel also suffers from epilepsy ..
till now . yun na yung sakit na hindi anwala sa kanya ,,

at times pag nakikita ko siya na inaatake .. naiiyak ako . kasi naawa ako sa kanya .. and then naiisip ko .. kung kukunin na siya ni Lord .. go ahead .. wag na niyang pahirapan yung kapatid ko.

pero on thing is for sure ,,
hanggat andyan siya .. at binibigyan kami ng pagkakataon ng Panginoon na mahalin at alagaan siya .. gagawin naman ito ng may pasasalamat ,

that's it for now :)
ito lang ang reason why nag join ako dito .. haha :)

i just want to share ang kwento ng pamilya ko .. at ng anghel ng buhay namin :)